I went through a food rebellion. That’s what I’m going to call it.
For like the first 5 months of 2017 my eating habits were curious…old staple foods like cottage cheese, salmon, yogurt…ugh, they were the absolute last thing I wanted to eat. What I ate instead was McDonald’s, instant noodles, mayonnaise salad, movie popcorn, diet soda, chips, foods that are battered fried then drowned in sauce…I surprised myself but went along with it.
I was also more interested in stretching than lifting weights, watching Netflix than doing work, connected to craft beer instead of people, and felt like I did not have my feet on the ground.
For two years prior to this, I was hyperfocused on being MORE: get strong AF in the gym, eat superhealthy foods, get out of my comfort zone, and grow in every way possible.
Naturally, what expands must contract…and it’s a totally weird feeling, but I think it’s intricately linked to my eating habits. When I feel good about myself, I tend to eat more nutrient-rich foods…when I do not, the opposite happens. And because I felt like I didn’t know who I was anymore, my food preferences, and how I felt about myself, unexpectedly degraded.
Instant noodles, Hakka food, chips… All these “unhealthy” foods that I was 100% convinced I would never touch again was all I had an appetite for. Weird huh?
BUT through my Eating Psychology Coaching program, I have learned to become curious about my eating habits as opposed to angry or disappointed or ashamed.
This program has taught me to let that shit go and rejoice in the fact that I am not a static being…I am constantly fluctuating, constantly evolving, and (hippy alert!) constantly moving towards my highest form of self.
Good health is never linear and it never goes as planned. We take unexpected twists and turns, and they teach us a lot along the way. But the “_____ issue” will always come back until the lesson is learned.
I am writing this now in reflection because I am back into a period of what feels like expansion – lifting weights, inspired to work on my new nutrition project, and integrating more nutrient-rich foods.
If you’ve been in what feels like a battle with food/body, learning to let go and become curious instead of punishing with exercise, restriction, or negative self-talk is the first step in becoming free of it.